At the age of 27, Cindy Bruna already knows many lives around the world for a brilliant career as a model and supermodel. But behind the Instagram photo is the story of a painful life. In her book, “The Day I Was Afraid,” published by Harper Collins, Cindy Bruna breaks down some of the restrictions around a panic that affects many women: domestic violence. For Yahoo, he provided an ongoing testimony.
Cindy Bruna, born on September 27, 1994, in the south of France, was spotted as a teenager on a beach in Saint-Raphael. Dominic Savri, the modeling agent, then sees an undeniable potential in her. And the future will soon prove him right. This is the beginning of a spanned career in a locked world. Young Cindy flew to New York where she discovered the splendor of a model life that was admired by all. From magazine covers to prestigious fashion shows, the young woman has enjoyed unprecedented notoriety, even becoming one of the rare French women to attend a Victoria’s Secret show. A fairy tale. Apparently. Since Cindy Bruna is characterized by a painful family history about which she has chosen to remain silent.
“Violence has started slowly”
“The day I stopped being scared.” That’s how the model chose the name of her book. A short sentence without a preamble to talk about an important topic. Cindy Bruna, a sponsor of the Solidarité Femmes Association, has chosen to bring strength to her story in her promise to break down the walls of silence around victims of domestic violence whose mother has been a victim for many years. Cindy Bruna and her sister were co-victims. “Living with it was a burden, it was heavy. But sometimes, we don’t realize it. It’s a luggage for us,” he admits to Yahoo today, adding in a trembling voice:
Cindy Bruner’s mother was born in Congo: “When he came to France with my father, he was obviously disappointed because it was more complicated than he thought. My parents divorced very quickly.” The day she meets an abusive person, everything changes. “The violence started a little bit. It was slow. So slow that you almost got used to it,” Cindy Bruna still remembers. Forgetting the “moments of violence”, he grabs the “beautiful moments”. But the harsh reality always catches up with them. In the evening, the two girls take turns “making sure (their) mother doesn’t take any risks with her spouse’s return”. On the eve of her mother’s wedding, Cindy Bruner recalls a scene in which her grandmother tried to strangle her son-in-law with the “so polite, so pious” threat. He was only eleven years old then and everything was going from bad to worse …
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“I was scared for my mom.”
Until then, Cindy Bruna and her sister had faced violence from their honest father. But when the eldest leaves the house, things go a little further. A real heartbreaker for the model, who still can’t hold back her tears when she mentions this moment: “I was scared for my mom. When my sister left, I think it was the best moment. More difficult because she was really towards me. Mom had this role. She always said she would leave home when she was 18. She did. ” Young Cindy has no choice but to “stand” alone with her mother’s violent husband to protect her from her injuries. It is by taking on such a heavy responsibility that one day in adolescence he gives up “fear” and confronts in response to his insults.
And then, there was the time when their executioner seemed less “invincible” to the police, when the situation at home became more complicated, urgently called: “For a long time I saw him tall, strong.” I was a child. I had this insult, I feel it. It has everything. These are the memories I have lived and I will live forever. But that was our victory. “
“Violence is not a disease”
Today, from this traumatic and painful memory, Cindy Bruna wants to learn a lesson. For Yahoo, he explains the process of still misunderstanding domestic violence, which often goes through a psychological detention first before switching to physical violence. But it’s a way for Cindy Bruner to warn of the devastating consequences for children, a helpless witness to an unsafe daily life: “I, as a child co-victim, have been a witness and I have experienced this verbal and emotional abuse. He raised his hand, but in the end the worst was not over. The worst was the torture my sister and my mother endured. “
Over the years, Cindy Bruna has known that alcohol was the trigger for this guy’s violence. But he refused to present it as an excuse. Nothing legitimizes violence. “I prayed for her recovery and not for her to leave. But in the end, violence is not a disease,” he recalls with irresistible precision. All these years, it’s the love of her mother and sister that carries Cindy Bruna. As a shield against injury and humiliation. And if the 27-year-old says she “lost this carelessness and part of (her) childhood”, her desire for motherhood survives these traumas: “I will try to make sure my children don’t care for me. I love myself so much.” That I will take care of myself, “he concluded, with tears in his eyes. A model of resilience and a very important testimony …
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